and I’m so sorry! I’ve been avoiding blogging for a few reasons.
First, my life had gotten incredibly busy at work. I have been going in early and working late to get everything I need to done before I leave. It makes the day fly by but I am exhausted when I get home. My work/life balance is way out of balance this week. I promise to get back on track ASAP.
The main reason I have been avoiding blogging was because I have been avoiding an announcement that I had a feeling would in inevitable… I’ve decided not to run my half marathon… This has been weighing on me the last week or so and it’s been killing me. It breaks my heart to think I won’t be there. I have invested a lot both physically and emotionally.
I had another appointment with my primary care doctors office today to look at my leg. They told me to stay off of it until I can follow up with orthopedics. I thought I would be fine once I recovered from the flu but it honestly hasn’t gotten any better at all. It is swollen, tender, and I can pinpoint the spot where it hurts and by the end of the day my everyday activities are too much to handle. It radiates throughout my leg and I realized this is what is stopping me from falling asleep at night. (Thank you for your suggestion though! I tried quiet a few of them)
This has been a hard decision for me because I feel like a complete failure. Not just to everyone in my life but most importantly myself. I wanted to prove to myself how strong I am and how I can accomplish anything I work at. I have always doubted myself and I wanted to prove myself wrong. In making this decision, I’ve decided I still will prove this to myself it just won’t happen on November 8th.
How will I do it next time?
- I will make sure I have good base mileage before jumping into a training plan. If I can’t run a mile, how should I expect my body to run three?
- I will incorporate my strength training to make sure my body is strong enough
- I am seriously considering joining a running club in my area. Being a beginner I feel like I could use the guidance and support!
- I will cross train to give my body (legs!) a rest and prevent injury.
- I will do a 5k and a 10k as part of my training for my next half marathon because there will be one!
Thank you for cutting me a break lately… I know I have been bad at updating but I honestly have just been avoiding this… As a blogger, you sometimes feel a tremendous amount of pressure to keep up with everyone else. I need to listen to my body (and my doctors!) on this one. I have to keep telling myself that I am just beginning this journey to try to live a healthier life. I will slip up, face injuries, and get sick. I am human. I’m not striving for perfection, I am striving for a healthier, more balanced life.
I’m off to do a little
Thanks for letting me vent!
I know this has been asked time and time again but indulge me a bit! I need to know if other people feel the same way…Do you feel pressure from other bloggers, friends, family, co-workers to keep up with their lifestyle? How does it effect you?