and I’m so sorry! I’ve been avoiding blogging for a few reasons.
First, my life had gotten incredibly busy at work. I have been going in early and working late to get everything I need to done before I leave. It makes the day fly by but I am exhausted when I get home. My work/life balance is way out of balance this week. I promise to get back on track ASAP.
The main reason I have been avoiding blogging was because I have been avoiding an announcement that I had a feeling would in inevitable… I’ve decided not to run my half marathon… This has been weighing on me the last week or so and it’s been killing me. It breaks my heart to think I won’t be there. I have invested a lot both physically and emotionally.
I had another appointment with my primary care doctors office today to look at my leg. They told me to stay off of it until I can follow up with orthopedics. I thought I would be fine once I recovered from the flu but it honestly hasn’t gotten any better at all. It is swollen, tender, and I can pinpoint the spot where it hurts and by the end of the day my everyday activities are too much to handle. It radiates throughout my leg and I realized this is what is stopping me from falling asleep at night. (Thank you for your suggestion though! I tried quiet a few of them)
This has been a hard decision for me because I feel like a complete failure. Not just to everyone in my life but most importantly myself. I wanted to prove to myself how strong I am and how I can accomplish anything I work at. I have always doubted myself and I wanted to prove myself wrong. In making this decision, I’ve decided I still will prove this to myself it just won’t happen on November 8th.
How will I do it next time?
- I will make sure I have good base mileage before jumping into a training plan. If I can’t run a mile, how should I expect my body to run three?
- I will incorporate my strength training to make sure my body is strong enough
- I am seriously considering joining a running club in my area. Being a beginner I feel like I could use the guidance and support!
- I will cross train to give my body (legs!) a rest and prevent injury.
- I will do a 5k and a 10k as part of my training for my next half marathon because there will be one!
Thank you for cutting me a break lately… I know I have been bad at updating but I honestly have just been avoiding this… As a blogger, you sometimes feel a tremendous amount of pressure to keep up with everyone else. I need to listen to my body (and my doctors!) on this one. I have to keep telling myself that I am just beginning this journey to try to live a healthier life. I will slip up, face injuries, and get sick. I am human. I’m not striving for perfection, I am striving for a healthier, more balanced life.
I’m off to do a little 
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Thanks for letting me vent!
I know this has been asked time and time again but indulge me a bit! I need to know if other people feel the same way…Do you feel pressure from other bloggers, friends, family, co-workers to keep up with their lifestyle? How does it effect you?
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Do not feel like a failure! Even the best runners get injured, and you know you will come back stronger and you will really appreciate your half when you do do it!
And heck yeah I feel pressured! My worst point of comparison is old me though!
Get some rest so you can keep up the good work. Sad your moving on, but Yea for New Beginnings!
You are NOT a failure. You’re a smart, healthy athlete! You are doing what’s best for your body by not running.
I wish I could say that blogging is great and you shouldn’t feel accountable for anyone else, but I know the pressure is there. It’s rough when all you want to eat for dinner is cereal, yet you feel obliged to get creative, etc. etc. You’re not the only one who feels blogging guilt!
Pam, thanks for your comforting words last week. It means a lot to me.
Don’t feel bad about not running the half. Rest is what you need right now and that’s a good decision. There are tons of races out there and you can run those whenever you feel ready. The running club sounds like a great idea!
Hey girlie! I think you are ABSOLUTELY doing the right thing. I had to make that choice earlier this year. My hip would NOT let me run a September half marathon. But I took the rest I needed to and came back slowly and am ready to run a half in November. You are NOTHING like a failure, in fact you’ve made the HARDER but smarter choice. You will work through it, be nice to yourself and come back even stronger.
Oh I’m so sorry that you’ve been feeling down about this, but absolutely do not feel like you’re a failure or letting anyone down. The most important thing is to respect your body and try to get your leg better. If you would have done the race it might have been your last. This way you can focus on doing it right next time. Your plan sounds great!
I’ve missed reading your blogs. I sometimes feel pressure from other people (especially in the blogworld). But then I remind myself that even on my unhealthiest day, I am acting in a way that is probably healthier than half of the citizens of our country. I can’t be perfect. You are not a failure. You’re learning and growing. You fail when don’t do either.
You are making the best decision right now for your future of being a runner. While I am sure you are totally devasted that you can’t run this race, just remember there will be others. Your goals for training next time are right on. Good luck with your recovery